heylooo....
i din knw hw long it had been since i opened my blog last till i noticed that i FORGOT my password!!! that shows that i had been away for some time :P
well...actually i had been longing to blog , but then evrytime i open the blog page, i get bored. sometimes i feel like blogging reveals too much bot myself..but then again i was thinking, duh! im the one blogging, so it depends on me hw much i wana reveal ..buttttttt then again, i have soo many tings to get outta my heart to some ppl out tere...so wth, i'll juz write wateva i want, its my blog anyway... if those ppl have diff opinion they can channel it thru their sources. which i wouldnt seriously mind cz im kinda getting annoyed of certain tings certain ppl do in in their attempt to be secretive,where they assume we are so dumb that we wouldnt know anytg but actually its juz annoying cz im nt that dumb..i wish i was dumber la...
arrgghhh... the feeling of betrayal comes n goes... it feels as though they had been bottled up for such a long time and the have started to release the vapour of destruction slowly....n yes, im annoyed. n i feel betrayed. n i feel like pushing all these negative thoughts away frm my brain. and how do i do that? by pushing the sources away frm my life. its sad to know it has to end this way, something i had never thought will happen. if this is how its gona be, tis is how it shall be, n i dun care. im nt losing anytg. i juz want those horrible anger to go away. i dwn to be an angry person. anger turns me into some1 who i dun like being. soooo,lets juz let it go,erase it,push it away, n be happy again! time heals the pain, but memories remain glued to our hypothlamus..or isit some oth part of the brain..im too tired to chck wich part of the brain is in-charge of long term memories..i simply mentioned hypothalamus cz i like the word 'hypothalamus' . it sounds cute :) heheh
btw....im enjoying my loooong break... even if it means, jz sit at home, and watch movies..actually i had plenty of things planned DURING MY XAM... but most of the tings i planned to do have not been achieved... mayb i shld juz wait for the right time.....
andddd...i dread WORK LIFE :/ i cant believe im alredy gona work....arrrgghh i feel like a small little puppy in a cage shooshed to go n find my shelter on my own...but again. fear. is juz a feeling. lets wait for the posting list to be released, then i shall think of wat to do.. i juz want to finish my comp.service quick n figure out wat i need in my life. trust me, till now, i dun have my life planned. im juz gng with the flow.. i duno wat im gona do in the future... n i am 23! i need to plan!
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Tuesday, May 10, 2011
vapour of destruction
heylooo....
i din knw hw long it had been since i opened my blog last till i noticed that i FORGOT my password!!! that shows that i had been away for some time :P
well...actually i had been longing to blog , but then evrytime i open the blog page, i get bored. sometimes i feel like blogging reveals too much bot myself..but then again i was thinking, duh! im the one blogging, so it depends on me hw much i wana reveal ..buttttttt then again, i have soo many tings to get outta my heart to some ppl out tere...so wth, i'll juz write wateva i want, its my blog anyway... if those ppl have diff opinion they can channel it thru their sources. which i wouldnt seriously mind cz im kinda getting annoyed of certain tings certain ppl do in in their attempt to be secretive,where they assume we are so dumb that we wouldnt know anytg but actually its juz annoying cz im nt that dumb..i wish i was dumber la...
arrgghhh... the feeling of betrayal comes n goes... it feels as though they had been bottled up for such a long time and the have started to release the vapour of destruction slowly....n yes, im annoyed. n i feel betrayed. n i feel like pushing all these negative thoughts away frm my brain. and how do i do that? by pushing the sources away frm my life. its sad to know it has to end this way, something i had never thought will happen. if this is how its gona be, tis is how it shall be, n i dun care. im nt losing anytg. i juz want those horrible anger to go away. i dwn to be an angry person. anger turns me into some1 who i dun like being. soooo,lets juz let it go,erase it,push it away, n be happy again! time heals the pain, but memories remain glued to our hypothlamus..or isit some oth part of the brain..im too tired to chck wich part of the brain is in-charge of long term memories..i simply mentioned hypothalamus cz i like the word 'hypothalamus' . it sounds cute :) heheh
btw....im enjoying my loooong break... even if it means, jz sit at home, and watch movies..actually i had plenty of things planned DURING MY XAM... but most of the tings i planned to do have not been achieved... mayb i shld juz wait for the right time.....
andddd...i dread WORK LIFE :/ i cant believe im alredy gona work....arrrgghh i feel like a small little puppy in a cage shooshed to go n find my shelter on my own...but again. fear. is juz a feeling. lets wait for the posting list to be released, then i shall think of wat to do.. i juz want to finish my comp.service quick n figure out wat i need in my life. trust me, till now, i dun have my life planned. im juz gng with the flow.. i duno wat im gona do in the future... n i am 23! i need to plan!
i din knw hw long it had been since i opened my blog last till i noticed that i FORGOT my password!!! that shows that i had been away for some time :P
well...actually i had been longing to blog , but then evrytime i open the blog page, i get bored. sometimes i feel like blogging reveals too much bot myself..but then again i was thinking, duh! im the one blogging, so it depends on me hw much i wana reveal ..buttttttt then again, i have soo many tings to get outta my heart to some ppl out tere...so wth, i'll juz write wateva i want, its my blog anyway... if those ppl have diff opinion they can channel it thru their sources. which i wouldnt seriously mind cz im kinda getting annoyed of certain tings certain ppl do in in their attempt to be secretive,where they assume we are so dumb that we wouldnt know anytg but actually its juz annoying cz im nt that dumb..i wish i was dumber la...
arrgghhh... the feeling of betrayal comes n goes... it feels as though they had been bottled up for such a long time and the have started to release the vapour of destruction slowly....n yes, im annoyed. n i feel betrayed. n i feel like pushing all these negative thoughts away frm my brain. and how do i do that? by pushing the sources away frm my life. its sad to know it has to end this way, something i had never thought will happen. if this is how its gona be, tis is how it shall be, n i dun care. im nt losing anytg. i juz want those horrible anger to go away. i dwn to be an angry person. anger turns me into some1 who i dun like being. soooo,lets juz let it go,erase it,push it away, n be happy again! time heals the pain, but memories remain glued to our hypothlamus..or isit some oth part of the brain..im too tired to chck wich part of the brain is in-charge of long term memories..i simply mentioned hypothalamus cz i like the word 'hypothalamus' . it sounds cute :) heheh
btw....im enjoying my loooong break... even if it means, jz sit at home, and watch movies..actually i had plenty of things planned DURING MY XAM... but most of the tings i planned to do have not been achieved... mayb i shld juz wait for the right time.....
andddd...i dread WORK LIFE :/ i cant believe im alredy gona work....arrrgghh i feel like a small little puppy in a cage shooshed to go n find my shelter on my own...but again. fear. is juz a feeling. lets wait for the posting list to be released, then i shall think of wat to do.. i juz want to finish my comp.service quick n figure out wat i need in my life. trust me, till now, i dun have my life planned. im juz gng with the flow.. i duno wat im gona do in the future... n i am 23! i need to plan!
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